extremely disappointed in myself today. I should not have let my emotions take control that easily. never ever ever again.

absolutely hate myself for being the way I was today. I should have put everything behind and never ever look back again at what was there. I should have left it all and looked forward and went into lectures and tutorials and interactions with an open heart and mind.

this should not be continuing over the next few days, weeks, months, years even.

it's gonna be damn hard, it is. but I'm gonna make it through.

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