it's been a while. I guess really, I hadn't wanted to spend the time to think of things to blog about, but I guess after bouncing here and there for the past week or so since the semester ended, I do have some things to churn out.
the past semester has a been a whirl. there seemed to have so much happened, yet it was such a short time. some parts are a blur now, pretty much, but I'm sure they're there somehow, and if I concentrate hard enough, I'm able to bring them up clearly again.
lots of pain throughout the semester; some have come and gone, others are still lingering and aching. but right now... most are just a fragment of a memory.
regardless, I've learnt a lot. discovered a lot. about people, about me. about why things happen the way they do.
it is true that I did lose my faith in humans, those surrounding me, in the middle. especially much toward the end. but to be honest, that lost of faith in everyone drove me mad. I went blind searching everywhere just trying to find that little thread of faith somewhere, anywhere, that I could hold on to. it didn't work out. blind searching never did. it never was meant to work out.
but there was a glimmer of hope, somewhere. it reached out to me. and I'm thankful for that. I really am, and I'd do anything to make things better for these people.
as things are right now, I want to do something. many things. with so much time on my hands, I don't want to be just sitting around and playing games and watching movies.
however I've no idea why but... I just can't.
maybe it's just not the right time yet? I guess so.
I may not know what's going on deep inside. I may not even need to know what's going on. but like the fool I was in the first place, I'm willing to simply be there; a bridge, perhaps?
yeah, a bridge sounds nice. a bridge. just simply to bridge the gaps, fix things.
and then forgotten. it's always been this way. ^^
a change is coming. these will probably the last words here. a lock is going to be put in place.
have a nice day, everyone. (:
